why have things changed?

day-by-day goes by and NOTHING changes, then i look back and everythings just different? not like it used to be? ruined.

Right, so i have this ex friend you could say. And she will know exactly who she is when she reads this, if she does. I first met her around p6, we all got changed classes in school. And we were like total best friends when i think of it =/ Always having sleepovers, just walking around school talking about afterlife episodes<3 because we are that COOL. And the first time she stayed with me, we kept dancing to Rhianna and Sailor moon. It was epic. Then this TOTAL freaky music video came on, and this weird anime guy was just dancing around, and we were howling & we kept getting told to shut up.

Then when she kicked my ass in Wii bowling & golf. I just miss it tbh.

We had this other friend, and we were comparing ourselves using bottles of coke. We're that sad.

But it was fun, and I didn't think i was gonna loose her.

But BAM. High school starts. Everythings running smoothly, but as we're getting older we're just loosing the fun!! And it's doing my head in!! I dont even FUCKING KNOW HER ANYMORE. SHE HAS NEW BEST FRIENDS AND SO DO I. WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED? SHE DOESN'T SIT AROUND THINKING ABOUT THIS SHIT, BECAUSE SHE'S MOVED ON. SHE HAS BETTER FRIENDS NOW. BUT ME? LOOK HOW IT'S LEFT ME? IT'S NOT FUCKING FAIR. I just wanna go back and re live every moment atleast knowing it's the only memories i gonna fucking have.


Even when i'm walking to school, I just see her and always think "I used to walk beside her" now it's behind.

I dont even like the new friends I have, they just dont have the same sense of humor that we both used to see in each other. I cant even act myself around her now.


Fuck being 13 =/